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I write everything is into my mind tonight, without stop, pauses... Let's go flow of thoughts...
Sometimes, like now, I see around me... I see a wide lowland... All this is so strange... I'm alone...
If I imagine to walk in this lowland, I imagine myself so, a dark wayfarer... This land hides something... But I see only the same thing... Maybe this land hides me, and me hides a big treasure... myself. But what's the sense if this "wealth" can't be share with someone?...
I stop, now I feel the sea... I see Infinity... Infinity looks at me... I wish I would like to have someone with whom to share my conquest, my thoughts, my dreams... It's true, I'm alone... If I'm born so, maybe dislike or ugly, boh, is there a sense in all this? Why cannot I like at a girl that I like?
Walking...
I know a lot of girls, but boh, girls that I like, they seem disinterested... This destroys me as man...
It's true... I'm alone...
I feel that time passes too fastly, and I sacrifice my youth with these hidden NO, and on books...
Also on Internet I was always to sad people, sad girls... But then, I was forgotten... always... That always... time doesn't save anyone... It's true, I did all this because initially I wanted something, but to take advantage manipulating the mind of them, is a FU**ING BAD THING!
Also on Internet I was always to sad people, sad girls... But then, I was forgotten... always... That always... time doesn't save anyone... It's true, I did all this because initially I wanted something, but to take advantage manipulating the mind of them, is a FU**ING BAD THING!
It's true that the hate comes from love... But for my love, FREEDOM, I HAVE TO RESPECT THE CHOOSE of these people, girls... etc
If I will can choose to re-help these people, returning in the past and knowing that I won't get anything, I will be happy to do again!
I HAVE TO OVERCOME MYSELF, HUMAN BEING, I HAVE TO OVER HATE, MADNESS, ETC...
I'm glad, despite the pain, to be that I am!
My life will be a BET! I WILL GIVE ALL FOR MYSELF, MY FUTURE, FOR NEAR PEOPLE! IT IS A BET THAT I WANT TO DO TOGETHER WITH PEOPLE I LOVE... BUT I WILL DISAPPEAR FOR PEOPLE THAT REFUSED ME, THAT DIDN'T BELIEVE TO ME, "OVVERO" OPPORTUNISTS, EGOTISTS
It's true... I'm alone... But this loneliness didn't ever leave me, it has always been with me... Loneliness said me that I am not alone... really... Between thousands ways that hate pushes, I chose the power! This power pushed me in the study, in defense of my loved ones... this power gave me new eyes... Loneliness... it is always as a parent, it kept me an eye on me, sometimes with severity, it understood me, and didn't ever abandoned me
Mum... you are THE MOST IMPORTANT WOMAN OF MY LIFE
YOU WILL BE FOREVER
It's true... I'm not alone...
Life is harvested as grain...
Now... While in my mind I can make my most beautiful reality, I go to bed... I'm sorry that I can live the life that I desire only the night, in my dreams. Tonight I want to dream!
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